That passing of Summer ...
Aug. 21st, 2009 10:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scottishlassSummer is almost ?!
Isn't it astounding that depending on how old or young you are time seems to either pass away to quickly or wraps and lingers and expands in places until you cannot figure out how much or how little already has passed?
When I was a kid a year, a month ... even an hour seemed to stretch out and outward before me. I couldn't fathom that any length of time would fly by ... and yet it does. The older I get, the less time I seem to have. However, ever since Chica's passing away a year and a half ago (already???) I make it a point to at least spent some quality time apart from the usual quality time with my pets. Right now I'm sitting in front of the computer, but Big C is curled up on my feet, sleeping deeply while the Little C is curled up on my lap, snoring the morning away.
I just love those small but very intense moments ... those moments where I cannot start to believe how much those two little creatures not only depend on me but also trust me ... trust me not to kick them with my feet, trust me to keep them safely on their precarious perch atop my lap. That trust and love. I always feel a little amazed and humbled then ... in these little moments like this that those two wonderful and unique dogs love me.
No matter what I do or don't in my life, no matter what I will mess up in the future, or have in the past, those two furry companions love me and my husband. It humbles me and I feel like precious grace has come upon us ... not given but bestowed and it fills me up with all those fuzzy feelings inside.
Yesterday, when we spent the evening on the riverside after a sweltering hot day, Cenour came up to me, tongue lolling, happy eyes and for a moment we just sat there, he in my lap, wet and happy from his bath in the River Rhine and we looked each other in the eye and I gave him a big smoochie and I heard his sigh ... felt him relax, as he burrowed his nose in my neck and just breathed. Soon I had two dogs on my lap, all three of us wet and warm, just being.
I don't know what will be in a year's time. I hope I can sit at the River Rhine just like that again. The C's in my lap, happy and content and in the sure feeling that they are being loved and well taken care of just like I know that these two love and take care of me.
The passing of August, of summer ... too soon too dear.
Isn't it astounding that depending on how old or young you are time seems to either pass away to quickly or wraps and lingers and expands in places until you cannot figure out how much or how little already has passed?
When I was a kid a year, a month ... even an hour seemed to stretch out and outward before me. I couldn't fathom that any length of time would fly by ... and yet it does. The older I get, the less time I seem to have. However, ever since Chica's passing away a year and a half ago (already???) I make it a point to at least spent some quality time apart from the usual quality time with my pets. Right now I'm sitting in front of the computer, but Big C is curled up on my feet, sleeping deeply while the Little C is curled up on my lap, snoring the morning away.
I just love those small but very intense moments ... those moments where I cannot start to believe how much those two little creatures not only depend on me but also trust me ... trust me not to kick them with my feet, trust me to keep them safely on their precarious perch atop my lap. That trust and love. I always feel a little amazed and humbled then ... in these little moments like this that those two wonderful and unique dogs love me.
No matter what I do or don't in my life, no matter what I will mess up in the future, or have in the past, those two furry companions love me and my husband. It humbles me and I feel like precious grace has come upon us ... not given but bestowed and it fills me up with all those fuzzy feelings inside.
Yesterday, when we spent the evening on the riverside after a sweltering hot day, Cenour came up to me, tongue lolling, happy eyes and for a moment we just sat there, he in my lap, wet and happy from his bath in the River Rhine and we looked each other in the eye and I gave him a big smoochie and I heard his sigh ... felt him relax, as he burrowed his nose in my neck and just breathed. Soon I had two dogs on my lap, all three of us wet and warm, just being.
I don't know what will be in a year's time. I hope I can sit at the River Rhine just like that again. The C's in my lap, happy and content and in the sure feeling that they are being loved and well taken care of just like I know that these two love and take care of me.
The passing of August, of summer ... too soon too dear.
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