Thank God It's Friday
Dec. 15th, 2006 09:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scottishlassDo you also hate the new updated look of LJ as much as me? Jeesh, of all the updates, they could have done without it. Nothing is where it's supposed to be and some changes are just plain stupid ... like splitting the Userpic with the rest of the settings AND getting rid of the drop down option where to post your entry exactly. Now you have to go to each community and hit the stupid top bar to post (or use a client). Aaaargh - they've got to be kidding me.
Anyway, to commemorate my own updates I changed the colour scheme and graphic on my LJ. Cool blues ... I really considered using one of my old Farscape graphics but then I thought why not doing one brandspanking new one with one of my recent obsessions in it :)
A little update on the health front, sorry for not replying to all your well-wishes. I was in tears when I read all your comments and I still don't feel up to replying as I still feel sore and raw about the whole business. Anyway, I have decided to get through with yet another chemo. I already have the dates and it will be 5-3-5-3-3-3 meaning 5 units chemo/ray treatment (2 1/2 weeks - 2 units per week) and 3 units (1 1/2 weeks) rest starting in early January. I didn't feel like starting on 22nd December of all dates. It would have not only ruined Christmas but also my hubby's birthday.
The decision was tough. I'm not a coward but last time's chemo left me with little to no energy - I felt depressed the whole time, was apathetic and my immune system went haywire. On top of that I got the weirdest side effects like liver failure (and I don't even drink for Crikessake) and some other nasties.
I thought long and hard if I can bear it again and to be honest, the only answer was: I have to. There is no other answer to it otherwise I can just simply give up and jump in front of a bus. It would be easier and less painful. I don't want to be defeated by some shitty illness just because I lack fighting spirit. So, bear with me when I get cranky or whiny. I'll do my best.
Aja Aja Fighting!!!!
Anyway, to commemorate my own updates I changed the colour scheme and graphic on my LJ. Cool blues ... I really considered using one of my old Farscape graphics but then I thought why not doing one brandspanking new one with one of my recent obsessions in it :)
A little update on the health front, sorry for not replying to all your well-wishes. I was in tears when I read all your comments and I still don't feel up to replying as I still feel sore and raw about the whole business. Anyway, I have decided to get through with yet another chemo. I already have the dates and it will be 5-3-5-3-3-3 meaning 5 units chemo/ray treatment (2 1/2 weeks - 2 units per week) and 3 units (1 1/2 weeks) rest starting in early January. I didn't feel like starting on 22nd December of all dates. It would have not only ruined Christmas but also my hubby's birthday.
The decision was tough. I'm not a coward but last time's chemo left me with little to no energy - I felt depressed the whole time, was apathetic and my immune system went haywire. On top of that I got the weirdest side effects like liver failure (and I don't even drink for Crikessake) and some other nasties.
I thought long and hard if I can bear it again and to be honest, the only answer was: I have to. There is no other answer to it otherwise I can just simply give up and jump in front of a bus. It would be easier and less painful. I don't want to be defeated by some shitty illness just because I lack fighting spirit. So, bear with me when I get cranky or whiny. I'll do my best.
Aja Aja Fighting!!!!
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Date: 2006-12-15 10:07 am (UTC)*biggest of hugses*
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Date: 2006-12-17 12:45 pm (UTC)