Too much ... far less ...

[scottishlass]

This year is not a very good one ... first my grandfather, now an aunt. Ppl from my family are dying ... It is such a strange feeling to see so many passing away of my family, people who have been with me my whole life, humans that taught me, accompanied me, loved me. And now they are gone.
I know this is the normal way of things, we are born and we will die eventually but somehow everyone clings to the childlike fantasy that your family will live forever, that they are invincible and immortal.
Last year and this year I learn the hard way, people who have accompanied on my way from baby to adulthood have been gone. It hurts, and nothing will be as it was before. It's strange to be suddenly realize that I will be the last of my family. I don't have any children and with me - when I die one day - all the anecdotes, the stories and the history of my family will die with me. All around me my relatives get older, my parents ... my aunts and uncles ... even my cousins ... and with me the youngest, I will probably be the one who remains.

Oh Rose thou are sick
The invisible worm
That flies in the night,
In the howling storm,
Has found out thy bed
Of Crimson joy:
And his dark, secret love
Does thy life destroy

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_sweetangel/]

I don't know what to say because it's so sad... except:

*Hugs*

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

Thank you Marie. Hugs back :)

[elfnut.livejournal.com]

Just know, my Schatz, that even those who go away had feelings for you, and you have made their life better by just being you.

Love,
Elf

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Elf}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[a-lady.livejournal.com]

The pain is unbelievable, I know. Sending many heart-felt hugs your way, Una. You'll be in my thoughts.

Lani
xxx

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

Thank you Lani ... it is a heart time when you realise you are the last of a family that laughed together, wept together.

Thank you and hugs back

Una

[sg1padawan.livejournal.com]

*big big hugs*

I'll be thinking of you, hon'.

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

thank you Sezza :)

I miss you all - I need to get more online so we can have a good laugh together again.

Hugs back,
Una

[sg1padawan.livejournal.com]

We definitely need to get online and have some fun sometime soon. Real Life has been far too sucky of late.

*smooch*

[ilona83.livejournal.com]

Hi Una!

Your post was sad, I can`t really find any words but maybe a little online hug will do? :) I hope you`re feeling better now. I have to go now and try to have some sleep, it`s almost 4 am here and I don`t want to sleep all day.

Hang in there! :)

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

Thank you Ilona, hope you had a good night's sleep.

Hugs back,
Una