Autumn is here

[scottishlass]

At last, I have some spare time to update a little bit. Today is another *fun* packed day - ha ha ha.
This afternoon I will update at last my sites, esp. m.i.t.m..

My mom is out of the hospital for good now but still feels quite weak, she will start working in a week or two (with a broken arm) as she doesn't like being confined to her home. My stepfather is still at hopsital. They have started therapy so that he can at least walk on crutches soon. I have decided that I won't be at the hospital every day from now on. I need to get my life back under control somewhat and I really don't care about all the complaints my stepfather does - about the staff as well as about me and Olly.

I don't know what to say ... I mean here I am rushing back to Germany from my one and only holiday in years, busting about 400 € for getting back and then my parents treat me like shit. Complaining, nagging, telling me I look like shit and have not lost weight. Then my stepfather after he woke up from a coma, that he thinks I look ridiculous in historic clothes (he never saw a pic of me in these clothes) and all in all telling me my husband is an asshole. And here I am ... dropping everything to be there for my parents in their hour of need and how do they thank me??
I should have known, I really should have known ... but I'm a child of my education, I was taught to respect my parents. But obviously someone never told them that they should respect ME and mine.
I'm really fed up with them. Next time something like this happens, to hell with conscience I won't be rushing back.

Comments

[elfnut.livejournal.com]

I am afraid that if things happened again you would do the same. And be hurt all over gain. Just because you are a much better person than them!!!
It has nothing to do with your education but the fact that you ARE DAMN BETTER HUMAN BEING than them!!!

I know its not much consolation, specially about having to drop the festival, but we, who know who you are and why you acted this selfless and generous, respect and love you even more for being there for your folks and doing what you do, even if they don't deserve it. Not for a second.

Goddess ... for you and Olly, as usual, my love!

[ceruleanedge.livejournal.com]

*huggles* i'm so sorry una. but i'm sure there is some balance in this world, and you have many people who appreciate you exactly the way you are. thank you for being so generous with your time. *mwah*

Hi

[tinwetari.livejournal.com]

Es tut mir sehr leid zu hören, dass du gerade so eine schwere Zeit durchmachen musst. Ich habe schon öfters deine Einträge gelesen und muss sagen, mit jedem mal steigt meine Bewunderung für dich. Wie schaffst du es nur das alles unter einen Hut zu bringen? Ich wäre schon längst verzweifelt. Darum will ich dir nur sagen: Wow. Respekt. Mach weiter so.

[koellegirl.livejournal.com]

Hi Una, sorry to hear your parents give you such a hard time.
I can easily imagine how drawn your are between your sense of duty to your parents and your own wishes.
Please, don't let them put you down anymore. I can't begin to see, what they can possibly say against Olly and they should have other concerns than your weight. You are absolutly right, they should respect you, or at least accept you the way you are.
It is not easy, but just once show them you can't be manipulated. If they complaining anyway - live your life your way and let them complain.
Hugs and "chin up"
A.

parents and sometimes only being there as little as poss

[(Anonymous)]

I went through much the same with my mother, and my father was just not "there" to protect us. It made me afraid to have children because I was afraid I would be the same critical way, because I knew no other way of living. I promised myself I would never do that to my child, and lucked out with the most wonderful husband and son a person could wish for. With lots of love and almost no criticism, even with a child exacly like me, it was the most wonderful experience my husband and I ever had, don't give up just do it better, you can. Sucess is the greatest gift you can give yourself. I just made sure my mom and dad were never alone with my child. In fact when he was 7 and I was telling him about my mother, he looked at me and said "but mom that is child abuse" out of the mouths of babes. Abbie