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I really detest being ill - especially now that I have to keep my reosurces together to fight my third chemo. Yes, I know - I should cheer up and fight the cancer that seems to have a fun party in my body since 1996 but enough is enough. If there is one celestial being out there I'm really angry at it atm. Not only that I have to fear for loosing my hair AGAIN - thank you very much - but this time everything comes together. The more often I have the chemo the more I feel sick. The first time around was already pretty bad, the second was worse but this time it is the worst. I never felt such a shit bag as I do now. For four days I have thrown up, I feel as if my whole sinews and muscles burn ... and it isn't even the last leg of the therapy but the very first.

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I really detest being ill - especially now that I have to keep my reosurces together to fight my third chemo. Yes, I know - I should cheer up and fight the cancer that seems to have a fun party in my body since 1996 but enough is enough. If there is one celestial being out there I'm really angry at it atm. Not only that I have to fear for loosing my hair AGAIN - thank you very much - but this time everything comes together. The more often I have the chemo the more I feel sick. The first time around was already pretty bad, the second was worse but this time it is the worst. I never felt such a shit bag as I do now. For four days I have thrown up, I feel as if my whole sinews and muscles burn ... and it isn't even the last leg of the therapy but the very first.

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I really detest being ill - especially now that I have to keep my reosurces together to fight my third chemo. Yes, I know - I should cheer up and fight the cancer that seems to have a fun party in my body since 1996 but enough is enough. If there is one celestial being out there I'm really angry at it atm. Not only that I have to fear for loosing my hair AGAIN - thank you very much - but this time everything comes together. The more often I have the chemo the more I feel sick. The first time around was already pretty bad, the second was worse but this time it is the worst. I never felt such a shit bag as I do now. For four days I have thrown up, I feel as if my whole sinews and muscles burn ... and it isn't even the last leg of the therapy but the very first.