Have we become the adults we never wanted to be ...

[scottishlass]

While driving the porcelain bus more than once today, my mater phoned me to ask how I was doing. Telling her that I didn't feel too good and on my way to the bathroom, she continued to tell me about how her life sucks and that she is thinking about leaving my stepfather ... yet again. I don't know what else she said as I was hugging the toilet again but that is the gist of it. With no word whatsoever (well the time my ear actually was at the phone) she mentioned she is sorry or something that I feel so shitty. Nope, not a word.

Sometimes I fear I will become like her, after all she is my mother and we share about 50% of our genetic make-up and I already have caught myself imitating some of her gestures AARRGGHHH!!! I mean I do it unconsicously but still ... if this is already in the genetics I don't want to know what else is inherited. *shudders*

Comments

[spacellama.livejournal.com]

You are so much more than the sum of your genes. You are YOU. And you is wonderful. So, no, I don't think you'll wind up with such a lack of empathy.

Hope you're feeling better soon and that this is a short-term quick illness.

[plazmah.livejournal.com]

From what I know of you, I don't think you would ever be like that. :) I have a few of my mom's gestures as well, but overall I'm still my own, quirky, self.

[crimsonredd.livejournal.com]

in my case, i would like to be my mom in many ways, but i am not. the only thing that me and my sister is worried about is - inheriting from her the multiple sickness her genes seems to be carrying. *sigh*

anyway, i'm sure you won't be like your mater, because there would be a conscious effort not to be. :)

[alexandral.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry that you are not feeling well!! ** hugs **

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

Thank you :) But it isn't short-term, I'm in the middle of a chemo therapy again, hence the nausea.

But you are right, we are more than the sum of our genes - hopefully.

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

I hope so too ... otherwise I'd hate to morph into a clone of my mother.

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

Thank you *hugs back*

[scottishlass.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you have such a good relationship with your mother. It seems since the day I was conceived my mother and I seem to be on contrary ends of the spectrum. I wish I had her sturdy health but anything else, I try to avoid like hell.